Wednesday, March 5, 2014

Insecure Writer's Support Group- March

Hello all!  It's the first Wednesday of the month and you know what that means!  Time to release our insecurities onto the world.

Thanks as always to the wonderful Ninja Captain Alex and to his fantastic co-hosts this month: Tina Downey, Elsie, Elizabeth Seckman, and Julie Flanders!  You are all wonderful, amazing, fantastic folks and I am so very lucky to be a part of this group.  (If you haven't already, make sure you stop by and thank them!)

Well, I am quite literally drowning in insecurities this month and for very good reason: I haven't been writing.

Many smart, insightful and aware folks have talked about the brain as a muscle that one needs to exercise on a regular basis in order for it to work well.  And since writing is such a particular skill, that muscle has to be well practiced at doing that particular thing in order for one to be a good writer.  Well, my writer's brain has all but atrophied.

Why?  Well, there's a bunch of reasons- some logical, some emotional, all not valid in the end.  Yes, I started a new job which has drastically altered my schedule, changed how my week runs and required me to learn how to do a bunch of things I've never done before (like track and manage money- yuck!).  And yes, that new job requires me to have my computer (which I would normally leave at home to, you know, write on) at work.  (This is probably the #1 issue which needs to be remedied as soon as possible by my purchase of a new home computer.)  And yes, I have been busting my butt in other activities other than writing (I've become a bit of a gym rat- more on that on Friday).

But at the end of the day the number one reason for me not writing is simply the fact that I haven't been writing.  I think about a story I want to write and I start questioning it, over-analyzing it, coming up with reasons why it won't work.  I say that I'm going to just sit down and do it and magically there are a billion things getting in the way.  I start to compose the first sentence in my head and then dismiss it because it simply sucks.  We all know this process- we've all done it.  And most of us, I believe, know the solution to it: just write.

I've been in this game more than long enough to know exactly what I need to do to fix my problem.  I just need to freakin' write already.  And yeah, it may be a pain in the ass to cart my computer from work to home and back again in order to do that- but I can't keep, you know, NOT writing.  That's just not gonna fly.

So this is me saying to you what I need to hear right now: Just write.  That's all.  No matter how it turns out, regardless of what words come out- JUST WRITE.  So if you're like me, don't plan or plot or even think- just do it.  If you're already writing, just keep writing.  And if you're writing so much that you've got words bleeding out of your ears then you, my friend, are my hero.  Just write.  That's all.

So many insecure writers, so little time...

10 comments:

  1. You can do it! I take my laptop back and forth. A lot to carry, but it can be done.

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  2. Maybe try writing in a notebook or on a pad of paper instead? Use different color ink, colored paper, crayon! Just something to bring the "block." For me, switching off from the computer to a pen and paper seems to work that creative muscle in a different way.

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  3. I haven't been writing much lately either, really since the holidays, and there are reasons but for the most part I am doing the same thing you are - overanalysing, questioning, etc. I will promise to JUST WRITE if you will too - here's to both of us getting there. :)

    Congrats on the gym rat activities, that's another thing I've been sluggish on! I need to get my butt in gear LOL.

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  4. I think you'll feel happier if you write, Beverly. It will lift your spirits and you'll be surprised what you will create!

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  5. I guess I need to read this. More than once. Writing for me right now is a joke... I keep looking at what I've written, and find reasons not to write more. Guess it's a "don't over think it" thing. From someone who nearly always over thinks EVERYTHING... Sigh.
    Cat

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  6. I just wrote a post today over at She Writes on this very topic. The idea is wonderful, but when it gets mired down in the much of the hard work, it can lose its sparkle quickly. At least that's what I've wrestled with! Great post.

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  7. Woot! :)
    I've been telling myself this for a week. I haven't actually started drafting, but I've been brainstorming, taking notes, and feeling excited again! It starts in the mind. You'll be rocking it in no time.

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  8. Hey Bev.
    ... from time to time, we all need to be reminded of this... thank you!
    Hope the new job is going well!
    Are you doing the A to Z next month??
    Take care.
    Writer In Transit

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  9. I think writers are wired to write. It's a sort of addiction and if you don't feed it, it makes us all sorts of crazy from depressed to cranky. Glad to see you're getting back into the swing of it!

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