Even
 now she can feel them- their eight limbs picking their way across the 
landscape of her body.  That sudden movement at the base of her scalp. 
It must be just a stray hair?  The itchiness on of the surface of her 
skin; her nails chasing the cause but always finding nothing. The sticky
 strand across the face- strong but impossibly soft.  Her eyes dart 
looking for the unmistakable shape but though always present they remain
 ever outside the periphery of her vision.  Is this madness?
She'd
 followed the ritual exactly: the words spoken from nervous lips in the 
midnight hour, the candle evoking the goddess of creativity, the herbs 
and incense piled atop as she bathed in the smoke of it.  She knew this 
was nothing to trifle with and she hadn't been trifling.  But what had 
she been inviting?
Her mind went back to the old woman
 in the shop with her layers and layers of ribbons and jewelry.  She'd 
said that every symbol had a meaning and helped attune a specific 
vibration.  She'd listed the spells that could help her and warned 
against diving in too deep.
But she was cocky, and 
only half believing.  Surely this must be a joke?  Something that crazy 
people do to make themselves feel better about not being in control of 
their own lives.  This woman with her incense and totems was a new age 
fishmonger selling trinkets and kitch to people too stupid to know 
better.
But Darcy, her free-wheeling and boundless 
friend had sworn this was the answer to her problem and desperate times 
do call for desperate measures.  So she'd swallowed her pride and bought
 the spell kit, hating herself for being so weak that she'd seek out 
something so hokey.  But she'd felt empowered as she left the tiny, 
cluttered shop.  No longer close minded.  No longer limited by a 
construct that maybe didn't quite fit.
"This is what 
you get" was the thought that came to her when she felt the thick weave 
binding her.  She startled out of bed with a panic and thrashed in the 
sheets.  Only a dream.
But then the itching started.  
The scuttle of impossibly fast bodies.  The strands of silk roping 
across her.  The breath catching in her through as she sensed them.  But
 her eyes showed her nothing and her hands always reached for invisible 
culprits.  She was losing her mind.
 
But no- she will not roll over to whatever dark 
magic
 she stupidly opened herself up to.  Buyer beware isn't enough to make 
her sink into the murky shadows where this energy would undoubtedly 
consume her.  No- she will defend herself.
 
Her feet beat a 
rhythm into the pavement as she walked- each step pounding with the beat
 of her rage.  The street reverberates with the strong, low hum of her 
feet like a giant drum.  It's so loud- surely others must hear it?  Or 
is this another sign of her emerging madness?
 
She throws the door open and marches to the back of the store where the woman is instructing some other hapless dupe.
  
 
"What
 did you do to me?"  She hadn't intended to scream it.  But she felt 
fiery and wild.  The feelings were equal parts foreign and exciting and 
she invited the anger. 
 
"Excuse me?" the old woman asked, as if she'd whispered rather than thrown the accusation.
 
"I
 did the spell like you told me and now there are spiders all over me- I
 can feel them..." and even as she said it, she did.  There was even a 
heaviness in her voice now, as if somehow the 
web weavers were inside her throat.
 
"Spiders
 are the spirit of creativity and feminine energy- they will help you 
beat your writer's block.  Help you weave a yarn, so to speak." She said
 it as if she were terribly proud of the joke,  "This is what you 
wanted, yes?"
 
"No!" she screamed.  But it wasn't a scream, 
it was the same whisper she'd used when she recited the words that began
 this nightmare. 
 
"You're fighting it," the woman said, 
completely unfazed by the hysterical woman.  "You have to surrender to 
it.  Invite the darkness in, and then you will be able to access your 
true voice.  We cannot fear ourselves if we hope to be free."
 
She
 whimpered, feeling so bound in by the webs that she couldn't move now. 
 They were everywhere now- her hair, her clothing, her skin.  Their silk
 covered her eyes and she could no longer see.  Soon there would be 
nothing but a bound figure in a cocoon waiting to be devoured by 
thousands of tiny, hungry arachnids.
 
"You're getting heavy now," the old woman whispered.  "You're letting it happen.  But tell me- what happens when you wake up?"
 
Her
 eyes shot open and suddenly her vision flooded with familiar sight of 
her room.  Nothing had changed, all was as it had been before she went 
to sleep save that the light had changed.  She sat up, still searching 
for the arthropds.  But the dream was over.
 
Suddenly, her 
mind flooded with thoughts and ideas that could not be contained.  She 
reached for the notebook and pen the old woman had told her to keep by 
her bed and began scribbling furiously.  She felt almost giddy with the 
sudden rush of creativity.  The damn had been broken and her hand could 
barely keep up with the deluge of words.
 
Ugh, oh, aah, do you have any idea how hard this was to read? :)
ReplyDeleteI HATE spiders! There's got to be a better way! LOL
Glad I could give you the sceevies!
DeleteSo creepy - I loved it! Coincidentally, I always catch glimpses of small things moving in my periphery. I hope my "spiders" eventually lead to great writing ideas! lol Have a lovely weekend! :)
ReplyDeleteI do, too! I always thought it had to do with my fear of insects but maybe not...
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